Week 16

compared to last week, no, better dun compare. it makes me feel lousy.

past few days, i started to develop ulcers and sores in the mouth. not so many ulcers, but the sores r horrible. my mouth is in pain. fortunately my threshold of pain is high, i can still eat with all the sores in the mouth. but it definitely added more misery to the tasteless and soggy food that i'm eating.

throat is in pain. drinking water is like pouring water into the desert land. it dried up immediately. my tongue got so dry it sticked to the teeth easily. i can't taste anything, can't feel anything other than pain.

becos of all the discomfort in the mouth and throat, i had problem talking. my voice is getting softer and softer. it added more misery when i try to talk.

i feel tired very easily. i had problem walking up the slope to national cancer centre. i need to walk very slowly, if not, i need to stop and rest. everyday after the radio, the only thing i want to do is to sleep. even if i couldn't, i need to lie down and rest.

i easily feel cold. even taking afternoon nap at home i need to wrap myself in blanket (the sun was big, fan off, aircon off).

i dunno if my cancer is dead, but i'm still alive.