pain

i'm getting some kind of unbearable pain on the tongue and in the throat. the tongue got too dry that it keeps sticking to the teeth causing the tongue to sore. as for the throat, i'm now experiencing pain even when drinking water. so eating and drinking has become a torture to me.

since my last chemo, i'd a new side effect, my left hand last two fingers r numb. the numbness does not go away no matter how i massage my fingers, how i move them. last sunday, when i was cutting my finger nails, i realised that all the fingers on the left hand were weak. i couldn't even clip my nails with my thumb and index finger.

today, i was told that my platelet count 60 is too low (normal is 150 - 400). Dr. DL said the cisplatin is affecting my bone marrow in producing platelets, and for that, i need to omit tomorrow's chemo. omit, meaning i'll hv 1 session less, no make up. he was very concern when i told him abt my numbness. i was prescribed with some neuroforte, which oso indirectly tells me that this is not a blood circulation problem, the chemicals probably hv some bad effects in the nerves. i was wondering if i did not voice out abt this numbness and go thru the next few sessions of chemo, will i eventually lose my left hand? from the facial expression of Dr. DL, this problem is more serious than i initially thought.

it's not too bad that i'm skipping the chemo tomorrow. at this toughest time (Dr. DL said one, the last two weeks would be the toughest time), skipping a session of chemo somehow lighten the misery. especially the weekend fatique and nausea feeling. i need a break. since i can't break the radiation therapy, a break from the chemotherapy is a consolation.